A reminder

"Tragic or humorous is a matter of perspective"

Perspective changes everything.

Sometimes I forget this and think that things are just as I see them.

But I don't always see them for what they really are.

There is good in hard,
learning in silence,
strength in weakness,
flaws in perfection.

It is just a matter of how you look at it.

I just need to remember that.

A few people I am missing today

It is a shame that we can't tuck a handful of people into our pocket to take with us on this walk of life. Too often we get to enjoy being together just long enough to make it painful to go without. Luckily paths will cross again but sometimes it's just not soon enough!

Mastering Fear

"Fearlessness is not the the absence of fear. Rather, it's the mastery of fear. Courage is the knowledge of what is not to be feared. There are things that we should be afraid of- we want to stay alive, after all. We will never completely eliminate fear from our lives, but we can definitely get to the point where our fears do not stop us from daring to think new thoughts, try new things, take risks, fail, start again, and be happy.

Fearlessness is about getting up one more time than we fall down. The more comfortable we are with the possibility of falling down, the less worries we are of what people will think if and when we do, the less judgmental of ourselves we are every time we make a mistake, the more fearless we will be, and the easier our journey will become."

-from On Becoming FEARLESS by Arianna Huffington

A New Way in the New Year

2008 has come and gone as 2009 approaches

I have done a lot of thinking about the things that await in the new year.
It excites me.

There will be a lot of changes,
some expected some not.

But in either case I look forward to it in much anticipation.

I hope that 2009 brings:

happiness
health
opportunity for growth
adventure
peace
gratitude
patience
knowledge
love

Inspired by Jim Carrey in 'Yes Man', a CD and a commencement address, that I randomly came across. I have decided against making any New Years Resolutions and that instead I will be making a change to my attitude and my approach to life.

I will start "living fearlessly in a fearful world". I will say "yes" to new opportunities. To things that I don't like. To things outside my comfort zone. To things that I fear.

This will be a year of growth in many ways that are unknown.
And I am looking forward to each day.


I am grateful for the things that 2008 brought.

I have learned what it means to live, to love, to lose.

I have grown as a woman.

I have grown as daughter of God.

I have learned from my mistakes.

I have learned to go with my gut, in spite of what I want.

I have learned the importance of family and what it means to "be there".

I have witnessed miracles in the midst of the storm.

I have learned that almost 5 years later, I still miss you.

I have learned to rely on the Holy Ghost and my Heavenly Father through the good and the bad.

I have learned that my plan isn't always the best plan.

I have learned that things always work out for my own good.

I have learned what it means to follow the prophet, blindly because you don't always understand.

I have learned the importance of education.

I have learned and grown more in the last 12 months than I ever thought I could and I will only learn and grow more in 2009.

I Think...

this is where I will be heading next.
Denber, Colorado
I think it could be good.
We'll see.

The Words

Although I am not musically inclined, music is one of the things I cannot live without. I find myself constantly creating a soundtrack of my life. Music is my way of saying what my mouth cannot. It heals me, it inspires me, it makes me believe.

I have learned to appreciate all different styles and genres of music for various reasons. I love lyrics. I love the way people are able to put words together to tell a story, or to get their point across. I also love when different artists collaborate and give a song a new feel. Here are a few that I enjoy!

Shania Twain and Elton John

Sarah McLachland and Pink

John Mayer and Colbie Caillot

Heart and Fergie

We all know Lady Marmalade. I'm a fan!

Aerosmith, Britney Spear, NSYNC, Mary J Blige

Reba and Kelly Clarkson

Although this is a commercial, I am still including it.

Talor Swift and Def Leppard

This one is just for fun :)

Alright, I will stop now. You get the idea.

Out From Under

Breathe you out
Breathe you in
You keep coming back to tell me
You're the one who could have been
And my eyes see it all so clear
It was long ago and far away but it never disappears
I try to put it in the past
Hold on to myself and don't look back

I don't wanna dream about
All the things that never were
Maybe I can live without
When I'm out from under
I don't wanna feel the pain
What good would it do me now
I'll get it all figured out
When I'm out from under

So let me go
Just let me fly away
Let me feel the space between us growing deeper
And much darker every day
Watch me now and I'll be someone new
My heart will be unbroken
It will open up for everyone but you
Even when I cross the line
It's like a lie I've told a thousand times

And part of me still believes
When you ay you're gonna stick around
And part of me still believes
We can find a way to work it out
But I know that we tried everything we could try
So let's just say goodbye
Forever

I don't wanna dream about
All the things that never were
Maybe I can live without
When I'm out from under
I don't wanna feel the pain
What good would it do me now
I'll get it all figured out
When I'm out from under